I'm more than glad the snow is slowing melting away now. It's been snowing like mad for more than a week straight, and i've been imprisoned at home for that long too. I can finally get out of the door and breath some fresh air, even tho it's gonna be freezing everywhere i go. One thing i noticed about my house is that I'm really not used to living inside a place that's heated all the time. I know that with a below frozen temperature outside, we'd all be shivering inside if it weren't for the central heating. But, i just don't feel comfortable living under such a warm but dry environment. For example, my lips are twice as dry as they normally were already and my chapstick don't seem to work that well any more. I'm also having trouble sleeping at night because i'd often wake up at 3 or 4am sweating like a dog. It's weird, but i slept much better on my tiny little bunk bed back in my berkeley apt. Maybe it's because my new bed is twice the size and way too warm and i'm just not up for something that comfy yet. dang i'm weird....

A past secret crush of mine has just recently started to update his blog after many months of inactivity. I must confess that the biggest reason i'm using blogspot as my online journal instead of xanga, which all of my other friends use, is because he and most of his friends use it too. (i know, wut a lame reason...) I used to, and am still now, read his blog everyday, sometimes more than once a day. He didn't, and i think still doesn't, know that i'm such an ardent reader of his blog. I even commented on it once, but of course he had no clue it was me coz it was anonymous. Hehehe....i'm such a stalker, not to mention fanatical and psycho. Nah, fanatical maybe, but definitely not psycho. He just reminds me so much of someone i was once very close to. Too bad i'm not his type.

Sometimes, i think i have too vivid and creative of a mind. Put in simple terms, i daydream too much. Perhaps that's because i read too much romantic novels and stories with fairytale endings. When my mind isn't occupied with things, i tend to daydream that i'll someday be in an overly romantic setting with a too good to be true guy. Like today, i imagined that i reunited with my secret crush at his friend's wedding. I imagined that I was sitting there alone and looking incredibly adorable as usual when he approached me and asked me to dance. Hehehe.....yeah, i know. burst the bubbles and wake up coz it ain't never gonna happen. i'm such a big dreamer.


I'm still wanting for it to come knock on my door....(dream on)